I’m trying not to be melodramatic. Really, I’m not. But then you’re pillar to post with meetings- each and every one of them big, and important, and you call during a break to check on your kid because you know, something was just off about him today with his allergies, and they answer the phone with ‘We were just about to call you, because he woke up from nap with breathing difficulties’, it’s hard not to vault straight into melodrama territory.
I’d like to say ‘Sean is fine’. This morning, I can’t. Sean will be fine. It is nothing so bad that it can’t be handled, but show me a parent who remains sanguine when their child is laboring for breath and I’ll show you someone with access to far better drugs than I. Long time readers of Wiremonkeymother will know the kiddo is severely croup prone, with, as his pediatrician wonderingly put it, the fastest crash time in the west. We have not had to amp up to regular breathing treatments at home. Uuuuuuntil now.
He’s been diagnosed with the maddeningly vague and non-specific ‘Reactive Airway Disease’ (is it asthma? is it not? all depends on the literature you read!) plus croup on top of it, making for a festival of wheezing and barking and inability to move air, oh, at all. He’s on steroids out the yin yang, antihistamines, breathing treatments, you name it, he’s on it.
Yesterday, at the ER, he sat on the bed in the room quietly waiting for the doctor to come in. I knew, as a mom, Sean was in bad shape, but as a scientist it’s hard to say ‘I know he’s settled down now but rile him up and you’ll see how bad off he is a mother knows these things’. A rotating student was there, eagerly asking me questions as they rarely see peds in that ER. As the doc came in, she commented to him that Sean was such a nice, well behaved, sweet little boy.
The doctor looked at my boy, sitting there forlornly on the bed, and said, “Yes, and that means he’s very, very ill because no two year old should be just sitting like that.”
That would be when I really started to worry.